Well dudes, I got dumped. But... I think it may be better this way. She lied to me too much. She thought I was such a horrible guy, when all I tried to do was what was best for her. You know, I'm not perfect, but I deserve better than to play second fiddle to some guy who cheated on her like, over 2 years ago. I'm done. It hurts, but I'm done. In a way, it feels like a part of me is dead. That cozy, happy part that still had hope, even when really bad shit happened. The part that thought anything was worth just a little bit of love... from anyone. Dead, man. I feel sick about it all, but it's over. I just hope she understands one day that I really did love her.